As a recently qualified life and personal development coach setting up my own business I had the difficult task of choosing a name. It needed to be a name that meant something to me as a person, that said something about my relationship with coaching and that called out to the people I wanted to help. After much soul searching I decided on True You Coaching. So who is the True You and why was this important to me?
In my life BC (before coaching) I would say I was kind, giving, always putting others first and considerate of how others felt about me or viewed me. These aren’t bad traits to have but during this period of my life I let these things control me, who I was, the decisions I made and what I wanted from my life. This affected not only my personal life, my romantic relationships but also my work life.
In my last relationship BC I had high expectations of myself to be the best girlfriend I could be. This in itself is a good thing you might think but actually it was probably one of the causes for my 7 year relationship ending in tears. I had to do the right thing, I had to say the right thing, I had to behave the right way and I had to want what was best for both of us. So who was dictating what the “right thing” was? It was my expectations, it was my interpretation of society’s expectations, it was my mind read of what my partner wanted or needed and it as all driven by my need to be “perfect”. As a coach now I immediately notice when people are in this place, the “should” place. I should be like this, I should do this, I should want this…… who says? I was so driven by the perfect girlfriend I was trying to create I had forgotten about me. What did I want, what mattered to me, was I even enjoying this any more?
My job BC was very similar. I had spent years working my way to the top managers position in my company only to stop being me the minute I had the promotion and start trying to be what I thought a manager “should” be like. How should a manager act, what should a manager say, how should a manager behave with people they had known for nearly 10 years? Again I was driven by my need to be perfect and didn’t even realise I had stopped being what got me the job in the first place…me. Quite quickly the same thing happened with my job as it had done with my relationship – stress, upset, extremely low self worth, no self belief and a real confusion over who I was and what I wanted. How often do we ever stop to look at the answer to those questions?
Once I started working with an amazing coach I realised how much I was striving for perfection, which I thought would ultimately make me happy and was in fact ruining the person inside. I needed to rediscover who I was, what was important to me, what did I like, what did I enjoy and most of all where did I want that person to end up in life. The first hurdle was conquering what my coach called my “saboteur”. This is the voice inside you that tells you all the negative things about yourself, your limiting beliefs. A selection of mine at the time were I’m not good enough, I’m not pretty enough, I’m not worth it, I’m not deserving enough and when you start to truly believe these things it is very hard to get back on top. But I did. I worked on this for a long time, in fact I’m not sure my work will ever be done, it is a continual process but it gets easier and I now have new beliefs about myself, I am good enough, I am worth it and my biggest one of all I do deserve to be happy.
The other great insight I had was to look at my values. I don’t mean the values we would all quote if someone asked us what our values are as these tend to our ideals but my true drivers, the things that make me tick, These are the basis of me as a person and in understanding them I can make better decisions and choices which I know are right for me. Respect is a huge one for me. This word means different things to different people but I know now when I get upset about something it is usually this values that is being trodden all over by someone else. Now I know this I know how to react, how to work it out in my head and how to get past the situation. Similarly my values of connection and empowerment have led me to my calling of being a coach.
I am also soon to be stepping into a new role of being a mother. As this is my first child I have never experienced this before and already I can hear the old limiting beliefs surfacing and the need to be perfect coming to the fore. This will be one the biggest challenges I have ever faced but you know what, I am going to do it the only way I know how now…. being me. I never give advise as a coach but if I was to give advise to any new mother or mother to be it would be in those difficult times put down the book, close the app, log out of the chat room and trust you. Trust your heart, your gut, your instinct wherever it is that the love for your child comes from and go with what feels right. Ask for help, be supported, laugh, cry, scream and shout but do it being you not the you from Chapter 8 of Parenting for Dummies. How will your child ever grown up knowing that they are perfect just as they are when their parents are doubting that they are? Please however don’t read this is as I have this parenting thing sorted, I will be up in the night with a screaming child not knowing what to do like the best of us but I’m saying lets support each other and help each other and trust what’s inside, not judge each other, one up each other or put each other down for doing our best.
So who is the True You? For me it has stopped being about what I can do to be the perfect girlfriend, friend, daughter, sister, colleague or even mother to be and it is about me being me. I am at my happiest and strongest when I am me, when I connect to my values deep down inside me, when I believe in myself and when I use that to achieve whatever I want to in life. Since discarding my need to be perfect, since accepting I am who I am and it is in my control to be the best I can be things in my life have started happening, great, amazing, loving, wonderful, fun, exciting things and I know it is no coincidence that connecting to the true me has made those things happen.
So my mission now is to spread the word, add to the wonderful work of so many coaches and practitioners helping people to be the best they can be and be the happiest version of themselves possible. Imagine if we were all happy, successful, loved, appreciated, motivated, challenged individuals, wouldn’t the world be a better place? So go on, ask yourself, who is the True You and are you living and honouring that person? And if you don’t know, don’t worry, I didn’t, but let me know and I will help you connect, believe and achieve just as I am doing.
Gail Butt – True You Coaching – email@example.com